Chapter Eight: Walking the Talk

Published on 2019-03-07

The next fifteen years were a new kind of difficult. The decade of choice came and went without significant progress in protecting our environment. In fact, our environment is even more compromised now than it was in 1989 when I first studied delusions of safety in Safety. Ghost Nets flourishes with life but there are fewer monarch butterflies. I haven't seen barn swallows in decades and there are fewer indigenous grasses alongside the road.  all over, there are fewer species and fewer individuals of any indigenous species except humans.

I experimented at a number of additional sites internationally testing aspects of trigger point theory in the project, Cities and Oceans of If, including a second site on Vinalhaven that restored more wetlands. In 2005, my Mother passed away and my sister and I inherited her home in White Plains, New York. The sale afforded me a pied de terre in Manhattan I kept until 2018. In 2010, I began a PhD program to test my thinking even further, “Trigger Point Theory as Aesthetic Activism,” granted in 2015 from the University of Plymouth in the UK. My research was inconclusive in its proof of on-the-ground marine impacts from applying the restoration principles I had assembled and tried to apply. I suspect if I were more technologically skilled, I might have proven my premises more easily. CFS did not leave me or leave me in peace but I have made my peace with its terms of engagement and bowed to its tutelage. I have survived two encounters with breast cancer, once in 2012 and once in 2016. They each set me back and then focused how I think. In the intervening years since the end of Ghost Nets in 2000, I fleshed out the theory as a complex adaptive model with clear rules that have been applied to the core present problem. The core problem I identify is the continued use of fossil fuels and the abuse of land.